of meetings, friendships and life mantra..

I had my first meeting with my supervisor. Hmm..it was earth shattering and a lesson of humility for me. I nearly cried but i blamed it for my hormones going hay wire due to my period is just around the corner. But the good news is that i didn’t cry. I channelled all my frustration towards findings answers to some of the questions he had asked me. I felt small and i was thinking to myself is it going to be like this everytime? If it is, it’s not for the weak soul. Because it can drive a priest to prostitution and a healthy person to a mental institution! Hey in rymes!hm.. but i’m not giving up without a fight! We are going to live! Today is our independence day!(hehe excerpts from the president’s speech in the movie Independence Day). After getting back my self -composure, and when i look back i thought this is just the first meeting and i’m making a mountain out of a mole hill..i think. I should be affected by his comment but not so much till it’ll make me give up. I need to take up this challenge. If the old guy can win Survivor Gabon, then i can do this( I’m watching the final episode of Survivor). I wanted to do this in the first place. No one forced me to do it so i should be strong and do this well. Do this great! I talked to Betty and she said that we need to be positive. Hehe another of my Dharma clan..oooozzaaa. She said we need to live life and not let all this nitty gritty stuff let us down. We need to take up the challenge. She said our supervisor has made her thick skin and she’s been with him since undergraduate years. SO she knows his style and she said I’ll get use to him. I need to find the information that he needs to me to get acquainted with and ultimately be an expert of. She also said that we need to be objective and not get personal and emotional because it’’ll be a norm and soon embedded sub-ritual in my life. Those are just a simple string of words that made sense. So i managed to find a couple of articles that are going to help me quantify relationships and also databases to use for reference and measurement of those relationships. I know i’m not making sense but it made more sense to me now than before. So tomorrow will be spent doing my critique and little bit time will be allocated to think of some more possible conceptual frameworks that can be measured. You know what’s funny, i simply come up with 3 Quantitative frameworks and my supervisor said that we can actually try working on the 3rd one. I nearly laugh and cry at the same time. Laugh- because i simply scribbled that diagram and cry- the though on how to make that work. Anyway, i need to have a sense of humour in this and i will. I’ve seen the others who are finishing their thesis with envy. If this is a survivor game, i would have resorted to killing! Anyway, ‘’the seniors’’ have accomplished so much academically and career wise. They have made a lot of money too with their part time work given by the department. I’m just starting and it made me look like a dwarf as compared to them – the giants. But i survived the first meeting. I could answer some of his questions but hopefully in the next meeting which will be in two weeks time, i could answer most of his questions or at least give him logical and ‘’correct’’ answers.
I’ll end this interesting and memorable day with a heart warming and in your face quote that Betty had shared with me. It sounded something like this“People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do”. Beautiful right? So what are you? You are in my life for a reason? Or a season? Or for a lifetime?