lowest low

Today i had my lowest low. Yep..you guessed it another appointment with my supervisor. I guess when you have spent many many days reading and comprehending all the data to formulate a framework that you are sure won’t disappoint but it did. At that moment I was this close to just walk away and go home but I sat. I sat there not moving but humiliated myself in front him. Somehow GOD is great. Things picked up after that. We discussed some more and my future in the formulating the proposal looks a little more promising. It was as if, all hell broke loose when a tornado hit a town and just when you think all hope was lost, lights sneak out through the clearing dark clouds and faith is restored. I know it’s a bit dramatic eh. But it was for me. You are talking about my future here. The future of my family. My family. That means so much more now. I went home broken and they were there to help glue all the pieces together. H prepared me a nice comforting dinner and Hannah made me laugh for dessert. They are always there with me through thick and thin. They love me when I look like the cookie monster in the morning or when I’m all made up to go out. They love me even when I get grouchy or when I want to be alone. I am counting my blessing for them. I am whole again but the cracks are there, still very fresh to me but I am not giving up. I will never give up. These cracks will make me stronger mentally. I pray to God for strength and faith. I have faith in HIM but I need to have faith in myself to be able to complete this with flying colours and on time. Gosh! This is harder than I thought. Anyway, I am going to write and continue writing. Starting now! Chao!